FEBRUARY 3RD, 2007. What a special day. Today Sam and I celebrate 10 years of life together. Ten years ago today we were sitting in our friends driveway and he asked me to be his girlfriend. We were 17, just kids who had no idea what we were doing, but I knew even before I said "yes" that this was real. I knew I would love you, I hoped that love would turn into the life we have now. And I'm so thankful we have made it this far.
Love isn't just a feeling. Sure the feeling is there, I still get those mushy feelings when I think about him, or when he comes in from work and gives me a big kiss. But love, real, sustainable love, isn't based on a feeling. It's a choice. It's waking up everyday and saying, "I will love you today, and everyday for the rest of my life." For anyone who knows our story, you know that we fumbled our way through six long years of long distance dating, a stage of our lives that broke both of us in many ways. When you start dating at 17 you have so much growing up to do, so many hard lessons to learn. Those years taught us what it means to fight for each other, to fight for the love that we have. Some seasons it feels so easy and natural to love, other times you feel like you're learning to love someone new, someone different with different passions, interests and tendencies than who you fell in love with. I have loved many different sides of Sam, and am continuing to learn this man who I have spent the last ten years of my life with.
So here's to ten years down and, Lord willing, fifty more to go.
"So when I lose my way, find me. When I loose loves chains, bind me. At the end of all my faith, to the end of all my days. When I forget my name, remind me." (Dancing in the Minefields)