I HAD MY first half a day alone with both boys on the weekend and it was quite the adventure. Sam went to go watch a baseball game with his dad and everyone else was out. I was up for the challenge considering the first day Sam goes back to work he is gone for a full 24 hours, so this was good practice in a small dose for that.
Oh my goodness. It isn't easy!
Finny woke up a little bit cranky and we had a tough start to our time together, but a smoothie and some grapes later and we were all feeling much better.
Before the nap where Ace fell asleep before everyone got home he was crying really hard (he is having lots of gas and constipation issues, we think due to dairy... more on that later). But Finny came over and helped to "pat-pat" (burp) Ace and then brought his "I'm a Big Brother" book over to read again and again to a total of 9 times. He would say "baby!" "Ace-y!" on each page and blow a kiss to Ace and would point to the big brother on the pages and say "Finny!".
There were moments where I wanted to cry because I felt overwhelmed and moments where I wanted to cry because my heart was so full of love it felt like it might explode. It wasn't an easy day but I know it will get easier. And in those moments where you want to cry and your little boy walks over to you and says "cuddle!", climbs into your lap, wraps his little chubby arms around your neck and gives you a big kiss, you know you're doing something right and there is no where else I would rather be.